I am still here - my nasty cunt wide open waiting to be fillled with cock, large cylindrical objects, your fist.

I've had a vibe in my cunt and on my clit since midnight that's 5.5 hours - I'm ready for action

My tits need attentiom too- will you chew an bite my nipples? Make me scream while my nipples get hatder than diamonds. I'll let you clamp my clit with a wood clamp from the hardware storeand I promise I will cum every time you tug on it.

I will even let you take pictures

Time for an orgasm

Did ya Miss ME?????

at this moment my cunt is aching and stuffed with what feels like a peeler core (any fencing guys out there?) my right nipple is clamped with a pinch grip hanger and omg it is worse than clothespins with upholstry tacks, I'm about to clamp the left nipple and contine forcing large cylindrical object into my aching clenching and wet cunt. I must say be here with you while I'm doing it
Damn that clamp is tight and the left nipple hurts more cause it is rock hard and more,,,,,,,,hang on my hands and arms are shaking

Finally Squirting Orgasm - Damn vibe sucks must be for gentlewomen.... I want to blow a gasket.

And just so you know I am not making this shit up I am laying in a wet spot right now - Next time I'll write ya a poem or tell a story.

Gotta get some sleep

"A Masochist's Ivitation"

Where are you friend

I'm here to play

My legs are spread for you to see

My tits are leashed and waiting

I brought a wooden hairbrush

I know you want to punish me

Spread my lips

Tape them to my thighs

And when i'm open wide

Beat my tits and watch me cum

Spank my cunt without restraint

When it's red and swollen

Attach those vicious clamps

To my inner lips

The really mean ones

Watch me cry and beg

Don't give in

Bring on the clovers

The tower of pain

Stretch my nipples

Hear me scream

Flip me over on all fours

Beat my ass

Remind me

My job's to cum for you

No hitachi No soft words

Just beaten tortured tits & cunt

Ass cocked to meet that brush

And when I finally cum for you

You fuck my ass

I scream and cum

You laugh

This poem just popped out this moring. Almost wrote itself.

Pussy Spanking Tonight

So, pussy spanking is harder than I thought. I think I need a crop or slapper. I went to do it with my hardwood paddle and got so scared that it would hurt I couldn't do it. Tonight I'm gonna try with wooden ruler. If it works I'll take pictures. I bought two different vibrators and they both suck. One doesn't even cause a twinge the other has enough power ut is like a palm grip sander so it's hard to use. I'm gonna have to get a hitachi with attachnents. I need something I can stuff between my legs with out using my hands to hold it in place.

The only other thing I need is you to watch. I know your there. I know your keeping silent and it makes me even hotter. Your refusal to acknowlege my pleas shows strength and makes me wonder "Are You Dangerous?" I said I like anonymous and you're taking it to the extreme. I know you're there it's like I can feel you watching me, even hear you breathe. I like that you listen to me beg for your attention and ignore me. My cunt is sopping wet ready for stuffing and my tits are swelling in anticipation of nasty clamps. I'm gonna cum in great gasping flooding squirts with every stroke and maybe I'll be able to hear your voice encouraging me "baby, don't stop! your not done! keep going! harder baby harder! do it for me! do it until you can't cum anymore and then do it again for me. When your done pull the clamps off your nipples very slowly without releasing them and then take my pictures"

I gotta go get started by warming up with the shower massage - hot!!!! pulsating direct stimulation to make it all sensitive.

BYE

New Poem

I caught a glimpse of you today, looking at my swollen tits spilling out like Dolly Parton, straining... to be... set free. You had that look it said you knew all about my sick desires, that you'd seen my naked tortured tits and knew I'd let you pinch and slap and bite and crop them. As long as you keep my secret I'll gladly suffer your abuses - Fuck Me harder, deeper, faster! Spank my pussey... so I'll remember you hold my chain.

Eight hours in the tack bra
Quite a tight clamp


Protecting the twat with SPF 50

THis was Hot


















Ok, so I tried the pussey spanking with a coat hanger and that didn't really produce anything and I've been too sick to try the paddle but I will soon. So here are the the pics I promised that didn't upload before.

Ive decided to use the high pressure shower massage to force an orgasm after the pussey spanking in order to blur the perception of pain with pleasurable pain but I need to have the house to myself so I can really give it my best shot with the paddle and get a better picture of it after without interuption or pretending to be asleep.

I'm still fantasizing about you reaching out to slap my tits and shoving your fist deep inside my spasming cunt without me every knowing you were there until I feel the sting of the slap and the plunging of your fist. Cumming by the gallon and not realizing your now using a crop on my bouncing bare tits as you pummel my womb. I know youring filming me because you're telling me the whole time what a dirty nasty vulgar slut Iam and the whole world is watching me let you beat my tits black and blue so you'll continue fisting me into orgasm oblivion. When it's over you leave me passed out to wonder when I come to whether it was all a dream until I roll over and gasp from the pain the radiates from my nipples through my chest wall taking my breath away, as I sit up it feels like I've been fucked with a telephone pole and it was left inside me. now I'm shaking cause I know you've already posted the video for sale with the first five minutes a free preview. Part of me wants to curl up and die and the other part wants to watch that damn video while sitting in a hot tub to sooth my battered body. I can't bear to put clothes on and I'm waiting breathlessly until you show up again praying I'll heal fast and savoring the steady deep pain. Where are you darling? Please come play with me ..........

I couldn't get the tack bra pics to upload the program keeps shutting down mid transfer so here are some from the first batch.

Sometimes it amazes me at how wide I can still spread my legs.

I will take pictures after I spank it no matter how it goes. I may start with a ruler or clothes hanger before moving on to that paddle . I'm going to start tonight. Wish me luck. I want to flood my bed with great gasping squirting.

I'm going to take some advice and try spanking my pussy. All I have is a hardwood paddle so I'll be starting slowly since I know from experiance it packs a wallop on ones ass. I do not have or want a dom. I simply want you to tell me what you'd like to do to me if you were in control. I want to think about it while I experiment with new sensations. It makes me hot beyond belief to know that I am on display for you around the world and I am not in control of who's looking.



Back Story: I've had thoughts of dominating/enslaving women for use as sex slaves, farm pet training, pony training, breeding for International adoption, and permanant lactation as long as I can remember. The first twinges started in first grade (simple stuff) and got very detailed by eleventh grade. I have never done anything about these desires.



I have since about fourth grade practiced strange insertions, knitting needles inserted anally, small pill bottles vaginally, and once I drank my own piss.



Since about 28 I've been practiced self-inflicted nipple torture, once clipped them and then tightly leashed them to the steering wheel for a two hour drive and then masturbated while driving the last half hour from work to home. Tightly clamped nipples are a sure fire way to make me sloppy wet and easier to facilitate larger insertions.



My current goal is to insert the largest/fattest cylindrical object I can into my pussey (eventually an unopened soda can) keeping it in all day with my nipples kept taut with the smallest O rings I can manage to get on them then at the end of the day when no one is home yet forcing an orgasm with the shower massage while not expelling whatever I've managed to stuff inside my cunt then finally with legs spread wide seeing if I can cum from spanking myself and I'm not talking outer lips I'm thinking inner lips, clit and vaginal opening. I know this will take time and lots of practice since I really don't know my pain threshold is. Actually it never fills like pain, to me it is very erotic and the sensation produced from nipple torture is so sensatioally linked to my vagina that I can't discern the pain until long after the orgasms, usually the next day when i go to put my bra on or the shower spray hits a nipple at just the angle.

I'm HOPING that CUNT SPANKING will just be an INTENSIFIED version of what I get from nipple play. I made a set of what kaya over on LJ calls extra ouchy clothespins I like to grab the tip of my nipples with them and after a few deep breaths I start play with my clit and then when the sensation is overpowering I get the biggest pillow I can find shove it under my ass and fuck myself into oblivion with whatever's handy afterwards I unleash my nipples and sleep in the huge wet spot. Most of the time I'm still sloppy wet when I wake up.



This blog is my outlet. I need to tell the world what I do, what I want to do, I need to show the world my naked tits, my cunt stuffed with ordinary household objects but to do it any other way would hurt the people I love. If I could I would fling open my curtains and the window and let everyone watch me. When I was 26 I knew I could concievably become a life sex show slut, all I wanted was to be fucked over and over by anyone and everyone but I knew that was too dangerous and I managed to bury my most depraved fantasies. But here I am hoping to live some of them out using blogger as my open window.



I understand why you might be concerned that I'm opening myself up to possibly dangerous people but I need this and when I'm done I'll always know that people are still looking in my window that my depravity is forever on display and I'll never know how many people have looked or even reposted my pictures elsewhere (you can if you want). Or if my own family has been here. Think about it you could be my brother, sister, cousin, aunt or uncle, my inlaws, ex-husbands, my co-workers (shame on you too), ex-lovers, or my best friend. That's what I need and maybe if I get good at this I'll do the whole webcam, video clips, thing and realize the dream I had at 26 although I certainly had a better body then (100lbs ago) I'm better at understanding my needs now. Plus plenty of you are BBW lovers.